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| no joke... dying of human interaction, hoping my friend from surgery is doing ok, wishing past relationships havent turned out like it has, wishing i didnt go drive 2 days ago and getting a ticket and getting bitched at.., wishing i dont open my eyes anymore and life for me would cease to exist, wishing that you would stop pretending to care, wishing to tell u that u were never there..
when it counted the most,
thats all i really neded at that time,
was a,
phone call,
a smile,
a hug,
but that in the past now, who really cares whow some1 really feels?, they dont, its just a downward spiral of illuminescent apathy that is in the road ahead.
what really makes you think you can understand, just because you took me by the hand? sincerity and the degree of
understanding
appeal to your sense
due to how you act, there is a sense of
lack of appease
egoistic want
obstintaneous tribal fealty (if you know what this meant kudos to u)
anyway, im coming back to reality now
the place where i was endowed with
the power to be close with
hate
anger
disposition
..
im apathetic as it comes, what can you do about it?
anyway i just sat here typing up a buncha stuff, so wahtcha think? o_O
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What i hate the most..
well lets see. i had a pretty shitty day yesterday, which was speent all week looking forward to it. it was the looked upon filipino christmas party which is the highlight of the century (extreme exagerration) and well it prety much stunk cause my mood killed the whole evening..
but what i wanted to point out was that : i hate it when people act like they care when they really dont. no scratch that, what i hate even more is when they come and lure u in, feed you little snacks and delights and whatnot, carress u and pretend that your their best friend, then all of a sudden stick a harpoon up your ass and basically your din din for the family that night. sucks doesn't it? yeah welcome to my life.
u just dono who really does care in this world. as i obviously found out recently not even the supposed closer ones that are supposedly intimate with you, could really basically in a nutshell give a shit. haha look at me rambling on to this blog that none of you all would actually care less about (hence what im trying to say) but what can i say its the only way for me to get this little emotion out without breaking the car windows of my van (cause i aint paying for that shit yo), anyway im done rambling i hate life. its just like my friend and what he said. he's doomed to go to hell and take over satan's job... hopefully if i play my cards right i'll be his right hand man
peace, love, and all that other good shit.
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| ah seems like im in an emotional roller coaster. well i am in one. and finally after i've just set the past back to where it belongs, i finally moved on... and today im HAPPPY =)... got to hang around with Elisa all day and sorta other things happened that i can't be TOO specific about. cause if i do then i aint holding my end of the bargain... anyway today was a really good day and hope it was for u all 2. chat with me later cause i wanna see whatever1 else was up 2 =) lates all | | |
| it's a sad day today. dont need to ask, just know it is. nothing good went on today. just keep polo in your prayers (if ur religious) or if not just try to make polo laugh whenever u see him and he'd appreciate it.
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| fun weekend. on friday we went out to eat @ zaxby's. it was me kevin and thomas rollin in my pimp van woot. met up with vern and her friend elisa. after that i droppped thomas home and kevin left. i met up with vern and elisa over at vern's house and we watched amityville horror in her room, cause it was all loud and noisy everywhere else. anyway after that we just hung out, played pool, listened to them play the violin, and we like went to the part at 12-1230 in the morning lol. after that we went back home and 'hung' out again lol, oh the hanging out never ends. i asked them to drop me off at bout 1 in the morning and as usual when i wake up dad gets pissed off at me for coming home late.
and well 2nite , halloween, i got matt and me my sis, vern and him went to the mall to take my sis trick-or-treating. when we got there, john michael and his cuz kenan met us up. went around and dropped off my sis adn then the fun of the night began ^_^.. lol not relaly. but yeah wen we got home kevin came right on time and we all left to go to elisa's house which is ALL the FeREAking way past the airport. wahoo. that was some killer stuff on the gas.well wen we FINALLY got there after getting lost a coupla times, we went to a supposd nearby coffee shop. but after a coupla miles and seeing as how it was closed, matt went to some mexican place there and ate some chicken tacos and got us some chips to eat. after instigating for like 10 mins where to go we decided to go trick or treating at some rich asss neighborhood. matt was dressed up as a taliban as usual, and would always say "the taliban thanks you for your kindness" it was funny seeing the reactions. anyway after trick or treating i had like half an hour to drop elisa home and get back home. so i was obviously speeding, that is after we dropped elisa. dad called a coupla times and shouted over the fone and hung up so i could tell i was in for it when i got home.
so like yeah as we drove like 75 on a 55 (i swear i didnt know the speed limit) i was like man dayum it we're gonna get caught either for A)speeding or B) having 7 people in my car lol.
but yeah in the end i just got home and dad bitched as usual. kevin managed to drop vern and jm and kenan home. anyway its fun cause i sped and everytiem i made turns in my van every1 would end up getting thrown to one side of the car and i swear we woulda tipped over a coupla times.
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